If you want to clarify for yourself your values, ideals, and worldview, what kind of God you believe in, or do not believe in, what type of person you are, then the best way is to start paying attention to your actions and decisions, not to your thoughts.
Examine your decisions, your choices of path in life. Did you stay or did you go? Did you choose money over love? Did you think that it is better to be safe than sorry? Was your career more important to you than friendship? Did you prefer to go that extra mile and to be on your toes, or did you resign to find a less demanding job that gave you more time with your friends and family? Are you a Christian who stores up for yourself treasures on earth, instead of in heaven? Are you a realist, after all?
Examine your actions. Do you abhor modern factory farming, but don't want to pay for organic? Do you prefer escape or to grasp the nettle?
