You are stuck in a rut, but the wheel tracks have not been made by you. Many people have traveled this road before you.

Transgenderism and transhumanism

Have you been born in the wrong body? No problem. The doctors can fix this—first surgery and then hormonal treatment. A boy can be turned into a girl and a girl into a boy. Gender is just a social construct. You decide who you are, not nature, not society.

Are your serotonin or dopamine levels too low? This can also be fixed. Your ears, your nose, your mindset, everything can be corrected.

Life sucks. Get yourself a VR headset. The kingdom of virtual heaven is there for you. You no longer need to fantasize or smoke dope. Suffering is for losers.

You can be the one you want to be; you can be wealthy and successful; you can be wonderful. You don't have to be poor and miserable. You can be a hero. It's up to you if you want to sleep under a bridge or in a mansion.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLXdoqXbC6k

War

Human history is the history of war, thousands of years of horrors, atrocities, and brutality. This king or that king is fighting some other crazy king or emperor. His subjects do all the dirty work. They do whatever they are told to do; they have no will of their own. Democracy didn't change anything. Nowadays, all the horrors are perpetrated in the name of freedom, women's rights, rules-based international order, preemptive self-defense, or some other noble cause, anything but power.

Iraq, Syria, Libya, Vietnam, Russia, Ukraine...

WWI, WWII, WWIII...

The thirty-years War, The Peloponnesian War, The Troian War...

There is absolutely no hope for humankind.

To make life bearable, try to find and hold on to a pleasant fantasy of your liking. Try self-hypnosis, positive thinking, medication, distraction, or meditation, something that works for you. Get yourself a hobby.

The Hard problem

Consciousness is a hard problem for many neuroscientists and philosophers. Other brain scientists and philosophers don't consider consciousness a hard problem. To them, consciousness is just regular brain activity: firing neurons, electricity, and neurotransmitters.

To my mind, everything is a hard problem: consciousness, matter, electrons, and quarks, the Big Bang. Are there really tons of universes out there? Are we living in an explosion?

What is a rainbow? What does it consist of? Does a rainbow really exist if no one is there who sees it?

What is a magnetic field? What kind of substance is a magnetic field made of? 

What is a thought? What are thoughts made of?

Do you have a brain, or is it the brain that has you? What difference does it make for you in your life?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C5DfnIjZPGw