Saturday, May 10, 2008
I am not only my body and my thoughts. I am also the trees, the ground, the sky and the birds. I had a glimpse of that feeling yesterday morning when I was walking through the park on my way to work. I am not only an egotistical little human being, not only an egomaniac. I am also something far greater.
In the old days people complained about dreamers and told them they had to wake up to reality. Today we know that everyone is dreaming and that reality is just a word, a noun.
What is consciousness? Think of it. What does it really consist of?
And what are thoughts? Are they nothing but electric activity in brain cells? But what is electricity? Look it up somewhere? Try an encyclopedia or a textbook on physics. Ask someone. What the hell is electricity? What are electrons? Are they tiny little particles or are they some kind of waves that really consist of nothing, or are they both?
What is light, really? What are dreams? What is matter? What are we talking about when we talk about reality?
What are we? Misconceptions? Misunderstandings? Imaginations?
I know people that are wonderful, but who think of themselves as complete failures. And I have met truly mean and evil people that really think of themselves as wonderful.
Some people are very stuck up. When they get turned on by spirituality they can get amazingly stuck up. They begin to think of themselves as Gods. They begin love themselves, they begin to trust themselves, they begin to believe in themselves. You can see it in the way they carry themselves, the way they arrange their faces, holy, advanced, awakened. You can meet many western people of that kind in India.
If you have a right-wing bend, a right-wing conditioning, you will read the bible with your right-wing glasses on and find passages that confirm your beliefs. And the passages that don’t confirm your beliefs will be reinterpreted to your own liking. The same thing happens if you have a left-wing bend. This applies to everything. A right-wing professor in history, or biology or economics, will find only the truths that confirm his ideas about everything.
So how can one free oneself from conditioning, left-wing or right-wing, life is meaningless or life is about whatever conditioning. Is it possible? Is it possible to free oneself from habitual ways of thinking? Is it possible to free one from habits, eating habits, smoking habits, ways of looking at oneself and the world habits? I think so. At least for short moments. This is when you focus your attention on the now, or happens to focus on the now, on the present moment. Then the mind will automatically return back to the old way of being. But I believe that it is possible to extend those moments of non conditioning, by practice. I also believe that it is possible to completely leave the old thinking pattern behind. It is actually possible in any moment, but we forget about it. Over and over again.